In Danger Of Losing Focus
I am not quite sure what happened to me last 2 month. I spent quite a number of hours doing something that is not at all related to unit trust. Sure.., I did some ‘productive’ work such as a little programming here and there, worked on some ’side projects’ here and there, attended several talks here and there.., etc. I was busy for sure…, but busy for what?
Fear in Disguise
This is fear in disguise.., that is all what it is. I am fearful of something.., I was supposed to do something but I was afraid to do it, it probably requires me to get out of my comfort zone, it probably requires me to do something uncomfortable.., so to avoid doing all this sort of things I devised (consciously or unconsciously) all sort of excuses. This is actually The Fight of Flight Response. During the stone age, our very own survival as a species depended on this instinct. Should we fight or flight the saber tooth tiger?
Fear is only as deep as the mind allows - Japanese Proverb
The saber tooth tiger is no more.., but that instinctive fight or flight response remains with us. I was fearful to do something that I know I had to do, and sadly.. I flight instead of fight. I created very creative ways to justifies my flight from a perceived threat. The threat isn’t actually there, but I perceived it is there and I ran away like chicken.
Here is some quote that fits perfectly my situation, I put it here so that I can read it again and again.
The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure. - Sven Goran Eriksson
If you want to succeed, double your rate of failure. - Thomas J. Watson