Rosdi’s Life Journey

Okay.., I have not been posting for a few months. The reason is I am now doing a very interesting (to me at least) experiment and I want to make sure it works before I start telling everybody.

The thing is, I expected the project to start bearing fruit as early as Jan 2009, but unexpectedly it didn’t go that way and it is going to take just a little tiny bit longer than that.

So I will stay low for a while until I got everything right and once that happen I will publish what I have been doing all this while.

If there is one thing I can tell is that, I am very committed to this blog and it is not abandoned. I may have been slow in updating it and there is a reason for that. I want to announce what I have been doing with a bang!

Patience my friend, patience is virtue.

Cheers!

I am not quite sure what happened to me last 2 month. I spent quite a number of hours doing something that is not at all related to unit trust. Sure.., I did some ‘productive’ work such as a little programming here and there, worked on some ’side projects’ here and there, attended several talks here and there.., etc. I was busy for sure…, but busy for what?

Fear in Disguise

This is fear in disguise.., that is all what it is. I am fearful of something.., I was supposed to do something but I was afraid to do it, it probably requires me to get out of my comfort zone, it probably requires me to do something uncomfortable.., so to avoid doing all this sort of things I devised (consciously or unconsciously) all sort of excuses. This is actually The Fight of Flight Response. During the stone age, our very own survival as a species depended on this instinct. Should we fight or flight the saber tooth tiger?

Fear is only as deep as the mind allows - Japanese Proverb

The saber tooth tiger is no more.., but that instinctive fight or flight response remains with us. I was fearful to do something that I know I had to do, and sadly.. I flight instead of fight. I created very creative ways to justifies my flight from a perceived threat. The threat isn’t actually there, but I perceived it is there and I ran away like chicken.

Here is some quote that fits perfectly my situation, I put it here so that I can read it again and again.

The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure. - Sven Goran Eriksson

If you want to succeed, double your rate of failure. - Thomas J. Watson

What does 0.5 Million and bad eye infection have in common?… ok.. ok.. bad joke…

Bad joke aside, my total sales so far has reached 0.5 million (I purposely write 0.5 million instead of 500k, hopefully it seems like I am selling a lot!). So… 0.5 million in 8 months, that is LAME. Let me spell it for you.. L . A . M . E…  lame. That means my average sales per month is less than 100k.

Enough said, now we move on to ‘bad eye infection’. The past 3-4 weeks I was not selling a cent!, none! ziltch!, nada! nil!, yilek!.. Why? well.. here is the ‘interesting’ part, I caught a very bad eye infection that made my left eye zombie red, it didn’t itched but it was watery. How can I zip around town meeting clients with infected eyes? no way!.. so I was stranded home for 2 weeks!. [this is excuse 1]

After I recovered, I spent about 1 week doing some mundane programming tasks for an old client. The programming part was easy but it requires focus and time. So I spent the entire week hammering the keyboard and I didn’t make any sales call at all. [this is excuse 2]

The fourth week, I attended some entrepreneur talks by cradle, and doing ’some research’ (ehem) online and pondering about the next big thing that I am about to invent (and get filthy rich in the process). [this is excuse 3]

The fifth week (I know I said 4 weeks earlier, but just read this dammit!), it is already puasa month and I was carried away with some programming work (personal project). When I caught the eye infection, I couldn’t go out,  so I did some programming just for fun. I like what I did so far and I may just continue developing it. [this is excuse 4]

Wow!.. 4 excuses!. I think I am good at making excuses…, I can always come up with all sort of excuses for anything!. Now.. how do I make money out of this skill… hmm…

I couldn’t believe it. It is already February. One month has passed since I resigned from my 9 to 6 job. And I have not been able to fully concentrate selling unit trust yet.

My life since resigning has been a little different. No longer I feel stressed from never ending works in the office. My sale last month (January)  is far off from my target. Nevertheless I am optimistic I would do better this month (February), far better.

I have been thinking about my life lately and I have concluded that, if I want to see any progress in my life (in terms of happiness, health, and material wealth) I ought to do something different from what I am currently doing.

There is no way I could reach my goal if I keep doing what I am doing now. I got to do something different, radically different. And after some thinking, I have decided to be a Unit Trust Consultant. I just found somebody on the net that is doing this and I like his result.

Why Unit Trust Consultant? I will explain this in later post…

Swiss Garden Resort Damai Laut Lumut Perak - Infested by Flies!

On November 2006 I joined my company’s family day 2 days retreat to Swiss Garden Resort Damai Laut Lumut Perak. The distance from Kuala Lumpur to Lumut is about 4-5 hours driving. It was fairly easy to find if you have a map with you.

All services were ok (foods were okay, I am not picky, room & service quality was also ok) except for one major problem! That place was so infested with flies! And what bothered me the most was that nobody gave a damn about it. Foods were left open (with flies all over), and every staff were not seen trying to do something about it. Either they do not care or they are so used to it and considered it normal to have flies buzzing all over your ear and food.

I took several photos to show you how bad it was, try to count how many flies are they on each photo. Click on the image to zoom.

I doubt I will ever come back here ever again, not even for free.

Measles or rubeola used to be a common disease for children not so long time ago. It is not a life-threatening disease and children infected with measles will recover after a few days. Today measles has become quite rare (in developed nation) thanks to cheap and effective vaccine.

Thanks to late vaccination (yes..yes.. blame it all to daddy), Kamil got infected with measles and he had high body temperature for 2 days before rashes start appearing. He recovered within a few days after the rashes appeared though.

For more information about measles, go here: Wikipedia - Measles

The climate on top of the hill was rather cold (by our standard by the way), on the second day Kamil couldn’t stand the cold climate and he caught the flu and that spelled the end of our vacation.

For the next two nights, we barely slept.. Kamil was restless and could not sleep. Mommy barely sleep at all, Abah (that’s daddy in Malay) as usual pretended he was too tired and let Mommy endured all the trouble, hehehe..

We did visit the waterfall though, Kamil played with the water for a short while, took some photographes, and then we left for the apartment back.

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